You can't keep apologizing.

Disclaimer: Suspicious onlookers, the following rant is in NO WAY affiliated with K. T. S.



......Okay.

This goes out to people who are diluted enough to think that they are so influential on my life, that they have actually MADE my decisions for me. Just because I've trusted you enough to open up a dialogue about a confusing situation in my life, doesn't motherfucking mean that you are so talented at persuasion that you penetrated my inner core and manipulated me into making a decision in YOUR favor.

Please wake the fuck up. You're my fucking friend, and that's the only reason I'm not screaming in your face and refusing to talk to you ever again. I care about you, but I don't want to be your partner. In fact, I'm rather appalled that after 1 and a half years with someone I really fucking care about, that you would have the GAUL to inferr that I am ready to pursue a love relationship with anyone else.

I'm a human, not a deity. Just because I have the capacity for kindness doesn't meant that I'm a saint. You can't continually ASSAULT me with these bogus, bipolar 4 or 5 emails a day advising me to do something, and then APOLOGIZING for advising me, and yet never actually following through with your plan to STOP trying to dictate my behavior out of some bogus desire to possess ME.



Get some fucking friends, PLEASE.

And quit underestimating me. I'm not your fucking weird emotional garbage can/doormat. I am NOT malleable enough to be swayed by the things you write to me in an email. I am not in love with you, I've never been in love with you, I've never wanted to be with you in a romantic way, and in NO WAY does that have to do with my painfully "idealistic expectations."

If my expectations are too high, that's my own fucking problem, and maybe you need to lower yours so you won't passive-aggressively continually vie for my attention.


Either be happy with your seat on the sidelines, or get the fuck off the field.

Thanks.

-Towering Expectations.

--by SleepUnwisely, Mars., 09/29/2008