Damn You

I can never keep my mouth shut! It's not that I don't want to, it's this damn affliction. Too much mind, not enough spirit. Well, that's not entirely true, I'm engrossed in the spirit of life without the depth of knowing. Buddha forsakes me because I am too hyper to meditate. I know I need to lean more his way, but something in nurture is killing my nature. I'm told I've got some time to catch up, but fatalism is a powerful employer and she's hard to tame. Am I really damned for the rest of my years to repeat the mistakes of the 44 I've already endured? Surely someone knows better than me, Tony Robbins perhaps? Nah, I loathe false idols or maybe I'm just to dumb to go along. Help me?

--by jsw548, Foster City, CA, 01/01/2006